It's true that we often begin to understand ourselves after we have already caused damage. For some maybe that is physically gaining weight, or bad habits that caused a preventable disease, or maybe, like me, the damage was internal. I spent almost two decades teetering on the brink of an eating disorder. Things may have looked ok on the outside but inside I was gripped with fear and shame. I picked myself to pieces and I deprived my body of nutrients. I did damage to my mind and body. I was emotionally scarred and mentally unstable when it came to my body image. I was literally one of those girls that thought I was fat at 120 pounds.
Though I like this quote, I am not a fan of the word "fixing". I prefer "rebuilding". I tore myself down but in the process of seeing I needed help and taking the steps to rebuild and cement each brick with truth, I came to know myself fully. Truly caring for myself with a focus on health has transformed my life from the inside out. Acting on the truth has helped me to believe it. It has given me a voice and the courage to speak.
If you are looking around your life and seeing destruction, be hopeful! when all is stripped to the foundation, you have a surface to rebuild and to do it well! For me, it was a journey of crushing shame and seeing my worth. If shame and unattainable beauty standards are weighing heavily upon you, I would love for you to be part of our "Not Ashamed" Challenge Group that is starting now. Fitness, nutrition, and self care do not need to be a form of torture put upon you as punishment for your imperfection but instead it can be a great privilege and joy to invest in your future self. I also love the quote by Rosa Luxemburg. " Those who do not move, do not notice their chains." I truly didn't realize how miserable I was until I started doing something that revealed my chains. Sometimes even realizing you are unhappy is a great gift! In our group, each of our journey's has been different, but as we move together, we are able to cast off our chains! Move with us!
"And Aubrey was her name. A not so very ordinary girl or name."(Or so says David Gates ;) I'm a wife to Phillip, a mother to Scarlett and Juliet. We live in the beautiful city of Thornton, Co. I'm a recovering red bull addict. I love to read. I hate to cook. I seek to be inspired and also to inspire others. I am a Beachbody Coach on a quest to be truly healthy mind, soul, and body and challenge others to do the same.