Live To The Point Of Tears

This quote struck me today. A couple of years ago, I was living to be numb. I kept busy looking perfect on the outside. My house was spotless, my children were immaculate, I kept quiet and tried to only say things that wouldn't show people I was different. I avoided judgement but I was also missing joy! I kept people out and I tried to stay numb.
There weren't many tears then but I wasn't happy either. I was afraid mostly. Afraid of being seen and found wanting.
Since I broke out of that prison, I've cried a lot! I let the sad out, but mostly I cry happy tears! I get so overwhelmed with love and joy because I'm really living! Yes, there are risks and yes I get judged but I'd rather be living and get a few haters than live a bland, unfilling, unremarkable life! That's what I was doing.
If you knew you only had today, what would you do with it, what would you want to communicate, what legacy would you want to leave behind? What impact would you want to make on the world?
I want to encourage emotional and physical healing on a large scale. I want everyone that comes in contact with me to feel more empowered and free to be who they are. I want them to walk away seeing their worth more clearly!
So everyday that's my focus and living with that mission gives me chills! And when I see my life affecting others in that way I am brought to tears! Healing tears that come from my pain becoming my strength.💗
Live to the point of tears, my friends! Whether it's a lesson you learn or an adventure you have, the experiences you gain grow you and create a life that serves the world.
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat. ". Theodore Roosevelt