The year I left Florida was a weird and painful year for me. In some ways, it was a good thing, but all around me life was changing. People that had been fixtures in my life, disappeared. People that I trusted, I found I couldn't. My family, who had all lived nearby made life changing decisions and moved away. Phillip got laid off and got a new job in a new state. We found out we were pregnant. Life was a whirlwind and before I knew it, I was standing in a new apartment 6 months pregnant with a 14 month old and a new life. I shut down. I didn't meant to. I was just exhausted in every way you can be and, in my emotionally depleted state, I holed away.
A new baby made it easy to make excuses. She screamed all the time, she didn't sleep, and it was easy to have low expectations of myself. Three years later though, I realized that I was still standing in the same place holding on to old baggage. I knew I had to make a change. I ( very hesitantly and skeptically) joined a challenge group. I wanted the physical change but had no intention of connecting with the group but, thankfully, they didn't let me get away with that!
Being a challenger surrounded by other women being vulnerable and willing to accept me where I was at freed me up to start letting people in. In a season where I had shrunk back from the world, it was a healing experience, one that had taken me 8 months to commit to.
We often think of things holding us back as circumstantial, like money or time, but those aren't really the issues, are they? If we want something badly enough, we make time for it or we work extra hours to have it. The things that truly hold us back are our thoughts and experiences.
I was well into my twenties before I had my first group of girl friends. My experiences with other women hadn't been great up until that point and though I opened my mind somewhat to allow a few in, my overall opinion remained the same. I continued to keep distance between myself and other women.
My experiences with people involved in MLM's had not been great and when my friends started with Beachbody, I was skeptical and hesitant. My first response was, "No!" As time went by and I wasn't treated like a number and as my friends continued to grow in strength, both physically and emotionally, a spark of longing appeared and grew until I was willing to try!
All of this said, I had to let go of all the thoughts and experiences that were holding me back. I had to be willing to look past my prejudices and be willing to have new thoughts and new experiences. I had to see the truth to know I was being offered exactly what I needed. It was the catalyst for all the change and healing that I had been longing for and I almost missed out on it!
What are thoughts and experiences are holding you back? Have you tried so many fad diets that you just don't have faith for change? Have you had too many people treating you like a number? Do you struggle with food addictions or emotional eating that you just don't think you can conquer? Do you, like me, struggle to open yourself up to others and be vulnerable enough to be helped?
It's hard to leave the safety of our comfort zones but we can't grow there, we can't heal there. We can't ascend unless we are willing to move past the walls we've built to protect ourselves. If you want to see change , surround yourself with people that are committed to you and to the process, it will change your life! Join us!
"And Aubrey was her name. A not so very ordinary girl or name."(Or so says David Gates ;) I'm a wife to Phillip, a mother to Scarlett and Juliet. We live in the beautiful city of Thornton, Co. I'm a recovering red bull addict. I love to read. I hate to cook. I seek to be inspired and also to inspire others. I am a Beachbody Coach on a quest to be truly healthy mind, soul, and body and challenge others to do the same.