Valley Of Change
I bought myself a pair of sunglasses today. I know that doesn't seem like it deserves an announcement but I bought them shame free! I used to feel intense shame any time I did things or purchased things for myself.
In fact, it was so bad for awhile, my husband would have to force my hand by ordering things for me or pushing me out of the house for a break. It was this deep seeded idea that I wasn't worthy. I wasn't aware of it, I only experienced the negative emotions tied to it.
The last time my husband had to force my hand into caring for myself was when I bought a challenge pack. I was mentioning it often, and he could tell I wanted to try. He told me he thought it would be good for me and he thought I should try coaching. I made every excuse in the book, because I was afraid to try and fail. It took him 8 months to convince me!
Beachbody doesn't just hand you a program and nutrition plan, (though that would be plenty!), they recommend personal development every day. They recognize that losing weight isn't our greatest need, it's a symptom of a greater problem, that we need healthy minds and emotions to be TRULY healthy!
I realized through the process that I carried shame for bringing debt into our marriage even though I busted my butt to pay it off before we had kids. I carried shame for quitting my job to stay home and care for our children, even though it's what we both wanted. My whole life I have been driven by performance and other's approval. I've been hustling for my worth as long as I can remember and it only got worse when I felt like I wasn't contributing financially. ( My poor sweet husband!)
This program revealed brokenness in me and gave me the tools to begin healing. So, today when I splurged on myself and felt no shame, that was huge! It's ok to invest in myself, it's ok to for me to spend money on things that bring me joy! Seeing my worth, gaining confidence, being comfortable with my body, has changed my life. I can honestly say I am a different person, the best version of myself that I have ever been and I'm not slowing down! Ive gained a vision for serving the world and making a differences and I now know that I have the power to do it!
If you have been on the fence about jumping into a challenge group with us, I cannot encourage you enough to take the leap! It truly is a risk-free investment in your healing and happiness! Our next challenge group starts March 5th and I would LOVE to see you there! I would love to talk to you about where you are at emotionally and the goals you would like to achieve this year! I have a challenger that has lost almost 50 pounds since August, but more importantly she has gained courage and confidence. She sees her worth and is standing up for herself! It's beautiful and it's why I am so passionate about what I do! Send me a message so me we can make a plan for YOUR transformation, inside and out! <3
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"And Aubrey was her name. A not so very ordinary girl or name."(Or so says David Gates ;) I'm a wife to Phillip, a mother to Scarlett and Juliet. We live in the beautiful city of Thornton, Co. I'm a recovering red bull addict. I love to read. I hate to cook. I seek to be inspired and also to inspire others. I am a Beachbody Coach on a quest to be truly healthy mind, soul, and body and challenge others to do the same.